Monday, March 11, 2013

Out of the Maze?

Just one of many quilts, large and small, waiting to be quilted. I've wasted a almost an entire morning, so I need to get going here.

However, I'm facing a few challenges.  I'm one year into recovery from the assault by a child and the resultant brain injury.  (My knees are hurting off and on, but I'm considering that only a very minor symptom.) I think part of what I've experienced the last few days is just my brain remembering and trying to come to terms with what happened.  First, let me say that I'm very fortunate because this week is "spring break," although we are weeks from spring; so at least I can deal with this stuff from the haven of my home most of the time. I've had horrible headaches, nausea, and panic attacks.  My hearing is still off--if I don't have a pocket and lay my phone down, I can't identify where the sound is coming from when I get a text or phone call.  (I'm thinking I'll just let my upper underclothing ring! Update:  I did; still couldn't identify where the sound was coming from!) I'm having olfactory delusions--practically choked on the smell of tobacco smoke when I went to bed last night.  The buzzing in my brain has returned, although I feel fortunate that it's intermittent.  I'm on an emotional roller coaster.  Any kind of overload of things to do and moderately stressful situations send me on a downward spiral. My short term memory is totally malfunctioning again--can't remember why I've walked into a room, can't cook without constantly referring to the recipe, can't remember what I just did or did not do.

And the point of this rant?  While in the course of world affairs, my struggles mean diddly [if that much], the health care system definitely needs to learn a lot more about brain injury and about how to help people who experience it.

Nevertheless, happy quiltmaking.....


7 comments:

bunbear said...

dora, please just try to relax and get some rest. you deserve it. this will all pass. just takes time.

doodlebugmom said...

Prayers for you. I was in a car accident several years ago. In an instant I forgot how to do the simplest math. Brain injuries are a strange and fickle thing. Good luck! I wish you the best. I know I am very lucky to have lost such a small thing.

Rosemary Dickinson said...

I hope you get better soon, Dora. I've always felt brain injuries have always been a mystery to medicine. The responses vary so much and are so individual that it's hard to make generalizations. Hang in there. Things will improve!

O'Quilts said...

Like my Grandfather used to say, "God help us all...God help the whole human race!!" Until this concussion saga...sigh....You know my concussion specialist told me that it does not get worse. She was wrong. There are relapses and they scare the doo doo out of me. Sending hugs from Charlotte.

Pokey said...

aw, 3 steps forward, 2 steps back...I'm sorry for this time for you, sweetie! Hope you get a little relief soon ~
:-}pokey

Carol said...

Sorry to hear about your misfortune. Praying for healing and a full recovery. Hope you can find a little humor in the fact that I have not had your trauma and I have some of the same symptoms that you have concerning the memory issue. Just remember, God is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think. Have faith, and take it easy.

Cheryl's Teapots2Quilting said...

Hand in there. You've made great strides in the last year, some setback are going to occur. Maybe your body is just taking a 'destresing' time.

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